A love letter to my younger self

Do you remember how carefree you were about what people thought about you? You never really wondered who said what and when? That was your X-FACTOR. As an adult, I embody the same character, but it’s hard. I came across a lot of experiences that shaped another version of me, which might make you cry a river of tears if I were to tell you. However, I’m certain that you know about them because it was as though you were preparing me for them. I am grateful for that. 

 Do you remember how much of a top student you were? You knew chapters ahead of a teacher. I recall how your classmates looked to you for solutions. At some point, the whole school knew your name, and wow, you were a force to be reckoned with. Being a head girl at school shaped your leadership skills. Life threw rough rocks at me as an adult, making me forget I was born a leader. I had to be reminded that I was once the head girl of a school with almost one thousand learners. God worked overtime to let that sink in. He strategically put me in leadership positions over time and reminded me that the little, fearless trailblazer is still there. She had to be dug out forcefully. 

Do you remember how you loved giving hugs to everyone you met? Nothing changed; however, it’s more purposeful because I understand the act. One day the Holy Spirit told me that when I gave hugs, I melted people’s brokenness away. So, I always give hugs as my way of healing humanity. That’s cool. Right? You wanted me to be a doctor to heal people. So, there you go! I heal with hugs!! Chille!! I wouldn’t have survived the MBCHB lectures! 

Did I tell you that I am more stable mentally and know how to articulate my thoughts because of how you used to write in your diaries about your day and innermost feelings? I now get paid for it. I write blogs and essays for people on the tertiary level and edit their thesis. You motivated me to love the English language. It’s paying off today. 

Do you remember how you used to talk alone as if you were addressing thousands of people? Well, it has not materialized fully, but God is working on it. However, I’ve done radio and spoken at several women’s empowerment events (a story for another day, God was not pleased with that), MCed, and worked in a communication company. No, I did not have a communication qualification. It was by the grace of God. 

Do you remember how every time there was a prize-giving in school? You would find yourself in a corner at home, and in that corner, you’d pray the “Our Father who art in heaven” prayer. Repeated it seven times, and when you said, Amen! You have surety that you will get a prize, and you are the top learner. Yes, indeed, you came home with prices (back then it was certificates) of excellence in your grades. God became your friend, and that established your faith in Him.

But now I know the secret, chile!!

 You prayed a lot!!

 You had a relationship with Jesus even though you had no idea what that meant. I am who I am because of the prayers you made. And to date, prayer has never failed me.  

Little me, I have a lot to tell you, all I can say is I LOVE YOU!

 Do you remember the siblings you had whom you used to mother and make them do duties in the house, and sometimes they’ll refuse? They have also grown to be responsible adults. Do you remember how you used to sit them down and teach them the stories from the Bible? Well, now I do that on a large scale. You’ve planted the seed of a desire for the word and prayer. You have played a great role in being a deputy parent at such an early age. Well done, girl. I LOVE YOU! 

May you keep popping into my life to remind me who I am. 

Some of the aspirations you had had not been met yet, but I can tell you that I have grown, evolved, and am very content. I can assure you that you will be so proud of the woman I’ve become. I might still have a long way to go to fulfill all your aspirations, but I assure you that I am in a good place. And my Lord Jesus Christ is my shining light and Armor. 

The older version of you isn’t as bad as the enemy would have wanted; he and his kingdom are being shamed daily because I have the Almighty God by my side. 

Little me, I LOVE YOU!!

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What would you like to say to your younger self? In a short line, let me hear in the comments section. Do not forget to like, share, and subscribe.

From my heart to yours,

Cheers!!

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